Age old lament

This was the topic of a recent conversation. And when the other person was voicing the thoughts that I have had time and time again about myself, it struck me that we're not as unique as we think we are. It's the same or a similar story everywhere. In a very weird sort of way it was good to have found company.

But in all sincerity I hope this friend does not succumb to the desolation. Instead. I hope my friend rises way above it all to have a spectacular life.

A tribute to you my lovely friend!

Blatant disregard to their feelings, pain, inconvenience, troubles, suffering, needs, insecurities, longings, difficulties, desires, priorities, compulsions, limitations, hopes, dreams, expectations, aspirations, ambitions, attachments and sensitivities.

It’s all about me, my needs, my feelings, my pain, my problems, my expectations, my suffering, my hopes and dreams, my this, my that. Me me me me me me.

Milked them dry. That’s what I did. Bled them till they could take it no more. All that was left of the genuine ones was the numbness. The others dusted off any signs of me and moved on before one can say boo.

The worst part is I have been aware of this all along. The whole damn time. Every single time.

But I am like a music player set on loop mode. The song just plays over and over and over and over. The listeners change but the song’s the same.

Lazy? Your nearly dead...

Change is the only constant in life. By that logic, the only way one can stay on top of things is by constantly adapting to change. Maybe getting a few steps ahead.

And so rest or stillness comes only in death.

Dark and unsettling.

Also, this is really bad news for the lazy ones.

And quietly doesn't flow the Veena....

With every new year, a realisation sets in that another year has gone by. I'm older and none the wiser? I hope that's not true.

I tried hard, real hard to resist, to fight the feeling, the urge, the compulsion to assess, review, examine, scrutinise, to understand the choices I made, the mistakes, the impulsive decisions but I just couldn't do it.

So I threw my head back, closed my eyes and had this out of body like experience and looked back at 2007.

And all I have to say is that I had my fair share of excitement, drama, suspense, pain like a sharp spear being thrust painfully slowly into your stomach, betrayal, scares and threats, twists and turns, unexpected developments, much awaited and much longed for opportunities, farewells both good and bad, mistakes both terrible and silly, tragedy, heartbreak, victories, accomplishments, long lasting life giving life support system like friends and constant, consistent change in 2007.

And truth be told, 2007 treated me well.

But I am still like this flowing stream. I have passed through many rocky patches, down breathtaking mountain slopes, through beautiful villages and yet my river is nowhere in sight.

Not yet.

I guess I will just have to keep flowing.

Happy new year!

I sent the following message to all my friends: Each and every one of them. Ok I'll admit it. I sent it to all whose numbers I still had.

"Here's to wishing us a spectacular new year filled with great jobs, true loves, trials, triumphs and happiness!!!!"

Well, this goes out to all those who didn't get my message but remember to check me up on my blog because you care enough to want to know what's happening in my life. I wish this wish for all of us.

Happy new year. :)