Inside my mind

I hit rock bottom

And eventually get over my panic attack (Between hitting rock bottom and having the panic attack and getting over the panic attack a lot of incredibly foolish actions and the consequent equal and opposite foolish reactions occur. One only needs to look at my life by the way to prove Newton's laws of motion. We shall save that lengthy saga for another time). Anyway, let's get back to the point.

The horrible twins doom and gloom begin to fade towards the recesses of my mind

And then in that singular moment when I'm all cried out

I have this epiphany (The dark clouds have lifted. The church organ plays some dramatic music in  my mind's ear. Please feel free to insert some other equally dramatic visuals and pomp and show for added effect here because frankly, we need to celebrate this deep philosophical breakthrough I am making here!). Anyway, as I was saying.

Things are so bad and they cannot possibly get any worse

In conclusion, (wait for the big reveal) the only way from rock bottom is up! (I AM A GENIUS)




Note to the Almighty: This by no means is a challenge to see if things can get any worse. I could really do with a miracle right about now. Pretty please with a cherry on top?

LOL

They say laughter is the best medicine.
For once they got that absolutely right!

Nothing is as therapeutic as just laughing out loud
until the sides hurt.

A lifetime of togetherness - Famous last words!

Part 1

A lifetime of finishing your sentences.
Enjoying the silences


You holding my hand whenever I'm uncertain
On all individual fears we draw the curtain


Drawing strength from just your glance
Doubt just stands no chance


Smiling at each other across a room
Being beside you there can be no gloom


We're opposites in character and traits
You're shy and wonderful
I'm loud and quite a handful


Two halves making a beautiful whole
Can't wait to be two bodies but one soul



Part 2

Alas! it never came to pass
The glitter of gold turned out to be just cheap brass


The vultures have gathered
Their mouths with saliva lathered


A public spectacle will unfold
Inflicting shame, misery and embarrassments untold


They tried to place her in a gilded cage
Her mind, body and soul ruined by their blinding rage


Who's victory? Who's defeat?
Such a folly she must not repeat


Isn't it better to be alone
than to discover the heart she loved was really made of stone?

Oh my! How time flies

So here we are in 2014 and I stumble upon my blog.

Rediscover it so to speak.

Like coming back to a structure supported by a few pillars and some metal that was your childhood home and tripping over an old diary.

Like flipping through the pages of that diary and being transported to a different, long forgottten, ancient ancient time.

Reading about this person and her ramblings. Surely, this isn't you? It can't be. Did you really think like that? Talk like that? Express like that?

And then the flashbacks. Reliving those memories.

So much life and living and dying and creating and destroying and betraying and loving and discovering and rediscovering has happened since.

So many chapters have been started and have been closed since.

So many lifetimes' worth of experiences obtained, lessons learnt and probably forgotten since.

So much happiness and pain and heartache and anguish and love and joy and mirth and laughter has come my way.

Sickness. And good health.

Some unexpected turns. Some false starts. Some nasty setbacks. Some wonderful people. Some horrid people. Oh so so so horrid..

Can't wait to say, "Good riddance to bad rubbish". But we digress.

Rescued from the depths of despair by friends. My amazing, wonderful, wonderfully amazing friends.

Here's to new beginnings and happy endings.

Rest of my life.

I am ready.

Bring it on!!!